27 February 2015

Felix Ames: Birth Story

Contractions! The perfect time to snap a pic ;)
This moment...wow.

Felix Ames Bushong
1/26/15 @ 2:30pm
7lbs 9oz

Home Birth: Success. And wow...it's been sort of hard to describe just how amazing of an experience it was to have our little boy at home. Very personal, loving, and natural. It sounds cheesy, but it was just so special and all about us and bringing our babe earthside. Now that I've experienced both a natural hospital birth and a home birth it's really crazy how different the two were. The hospital was very business like. I was a name on a list of people to be seen. I tell yah, after this home birth experience I would love to do it again (but I am not crazy sooooo) ;)

Now, onto my little guys story. After a night of absolutely zero sleep due to our loving little toddler, we were up for the day at around 6am. I don't know what it was, but I just knew. I knew it was going to happen on a day when Silas chose to go buck wild at night and not let us sleep a wink. And there we were. Around 6:30am I had my first "holy shit" contraction. Now, with Silas I had horrific back labor so this felt like a minor little blip on the chart compared to things with him. But I knew it was the real deal so I told Nick I didn't think he was going to go into the office that day. So, what does he do? He goes ahead and starts getting ready to go to the office. After my "WTF are you doing look?" he took me seriously. I decided to get into the shower to alleviate some of the pain and once I was in there Nick definitely knew that this was going to happen. We called my midwife Heather and put it on her radar that it was going down! Nick started setting up our birth tub and I chilled with Silas and kept track of my contractions every so often. Around 11am I put Silas down for a nap. Yes...ME. It was sort of hysterical because I was willing him with my mind to fall asleep ASAP while clutching his headboard during my contractions. He actually fell asleep pretty fast and after that I finally felt I could relinquish control to my labor and I think that's when it really started getting intense.
There are two things that I tell myself during contractions. 1) Allow yourself to feel this pain. This is normal pain. Accept it. 2) Don't fight it. I really try and allow it to spread over my body and do it's thing. Every contraction gets me just a little closer to seeing my baby. And every contraction has a purpose. I really believe in positive affirmations. It's amazing how much your mind set can affect your labor.
Of course, this is hard to do when you feel like you can't take it anymore, but that is why I cannot stress enough how important it is to have people on your support team. We had two doulas; one for Silas when he woke up and then one for myself. Between those two ladies, my two midwives, and Nick, I could not have asked for better support. Yes, I said out loud a few times that I couldn't do it, but I was reassured that I was doing it and it was what I wanted.
Around 11:30 my midwives and Doulas showed up and set up their supplies, monitored the baby and myself for a bit, and then I was told I could get in the tub. I was in active labor now so the water was absolutely glorious. Let me mention that it was a blue sky, gorgeous day at 63 degrees. So we had the window open above the birth pool and between the breeze flowing over my face and the water I could not have asked for a better way to manage my pain. And this is where it ends kids, it went fast. At 2:27 my water broke and holy sh*t if that baby didn't just fly out. Seriously, I immediately needed to push. I pushed for exactly 3 minutes and at 2:30 I lifted our sweet little angel out of the water and held him for the first time. It was the craziest, best experience of my life. When Silas was born I was so exhausted at the end and this time I felt so alive and energetic. It was truly amazing and special.

20 January 2015

Baby Boosh // 40 weeks


Ahhhhhhh. Let's make this happen. I am SO ready to not be pregnant anymore. Well, I go back and forth. I wouldn't mind not having this bulging belly out in front, but I am so nervous for two babies and for Silas that sometimes I want to cry. I just keep looking at Silas's little face and praying he won't hate me. We are so close to D-Day (the 23rd) so I am starting to try and get things moving as much as I can with some acupuncture. If I do go past Friday I might try a few other things, but ultimately it is up to this little dude as to when we wants to make his debut and that is fine with me. Silas was 12 days late and honestly, he could not have been more perfect so I know that when Felix is ready he'll make it happen.


How far along: 40 weeks ( 39w4d)
Total weight gain: 35lbs
Maternity clothes: Yes & Yes. I am burning these leggings after this.
Stretch marks: Yup.
Sleep: Hardly. Insomnia has a tight hold on me right now along with contractions.
Best moment this week: Seeing my midwives (love them!) and talking about the birth. I can't wait to experience this.
Movement: Always.
Food cravings: nope
Anything making you queasy or sick: No
Gender: Boy
Belly button in or out: out
Wedding rings on or off: on
Mood of the week: happy, nervous, excited
Looking forward to: Going into labor! And meeting our little boy :)

10 October 2014

Baby Boosh // 25 weeks





How far along: 25 weeks
Total weight gain: 14+ lbs
Maternity clothes: some tops and my maternity leggings.
Stretch marks: yes, but who cares.
Sleep: Silas has woken up at 4am (along with his regularly scheduled 1,000 wake ups before that) 3 days this week and it's killing me. 
Best moment this week: getting in some good yoga time while Silas naps and I can really tell Felix had a growth spurt by where he's kicking me.
Movement: it's been constant.
Food cravings: nope
Anything making you queasy or sick: No
Gender: Boy
Belly button in or out: out
Wedding rings on or off: on
Mood of the week: happy
Looking forward to: a couple of yoga classes this weekend and taking our babe to the pumpkin patch!

04 October 2014

Baby boosh // 24 weeks


That's banana on my sports bra...     #momlife
 I am blown away that I'm 6 months pregnant. Feeling the urge to really get things organized, cleaned, rearranged, etc. and finding I don't have the time or energy to do it. I had a consultation with the home birth midwives and I am so excited. Definitely nervous, but I think that's just because in our society it's the "norm" to go to the hospital to have your baby and we obviously won't be doing that. I 100% trust the women who will be attending Felix's birth and I'm so excited to be surrounded by them. I didn't view giving birth as a scary thing with Silas and I definitely don't this time either. With all the cattiness, lack of support, and pain that women cause each other in this world, I was so proud of the women who surrounded me with Silas and really just loved me and got me through it. So, so special and amazing. I can't wait to experience it again.

How far along: 24 weeks + 1 day
Total weight gain: 14 lbs
Maternity clothes: A couple of tops but still sticking to my regular pants.
Stretch marks: nothing new
Sleep: melatonin and magnesium nightly
Best moment this week: my consultation with our home birth midwives.
Movement: always, but no kicks in the ribs like Silas was so keen on.
Food cravings: coffee, but I don't think that's the pregnancy talking...
Anything making you queasy or sick: No
Gender: Boy
Belly button in or out: out
Wedding rings on or off: on
Mood of the week: happy
Looking forward to: my prenatal appointment at the midwives and talking about our home birth setup.


29 September 2014

Baby Boosh // 23 weeks




How far along: 23 weeks + 3 days
Total weight gain: 14 lbs
Maternity clothes: Lots of stretchy tops and leggings.
Stretch marks: old ones are getting darker.
Sleep: melatonin has been helping
Best moment this week: going through Silas's old clothes. So tiny!
Movement: He loves to squirm and kick when I'm lying down.
Food cravings: feeling the need for sweets!
Anything making you queasy or sick: No
Gender: Boy
Belly button in or out: out
Wedding rings on or off: on
Mood of the week: excited!
Looking forward to: My consultation withthe home birth midwives.

20 September 2014

Baby boosh // 22 weeks


              
22weeks & 2 days. His name is Felix Ames (pronounced AIMS or for all my furniture nerds out there...EAMES) Bushong. He likes to karate chop my bladder and sleep on my stomach. He seems like a pretty chill dude ;)

Wow. This is starting to fly by! The nesting instinct has started to kick in, which is really hard to deal with when you have a 17month old running around. I've been continuing yoga and seriously, I feel so much better this pregnancy being active. It's really become one of my favorite days of the week; when I get to go to class. I'm hoping it leads to a really smooth labor! 

So, home birth. We have decided it's a go! I am nervous, but also kind of relieved to not have to figure out what to do with Silas while we go to the hospital. Leaving him was giving me anxiety because I know how much he loves his mama and papa. He just has a hard time being away from us...and if it happened at night and he woke up to us not being there I would feel awful. My midwife Lara was so excited for me when I brought up the idea of giving birth at home. She assured me I was an ideal candidate for it and shared her own experience. I will happily go to sleep in my bed over a hospital bed this time :)

I can't wait to do a little tour of the boys room once I get it all together. We are in the middle of moving things around in our apartment and it's so crazy. Only 18+/- weeks to go!

How far along: 22weeks + 2 days
Total weight gain: 14 lbs
Maternity clothes: I am thinking of doing a personal challenge...how long can I go using a hair-tie to keep my pants closed.
Stretch marks: old ones are getting darker.
Sleep: I don't know what that is...
Best moment this week: deciding on our little boys name :)
Movement: He loves to do a little shake and then settles into a position. 
Food cravings: nothing. He's taken to pressing on my stomach which makes me feel full a lot. Not cool...
Anything making you queasy or sick: nope. Some random waves of nausea sometimes.
Gender: Boy
Belly button in or out: out
Wedding rings on or off: on
Mood of the week: tired. Always.
Looking forward to: meeting our midwives and talking about our home birth!


12 September 2014

Baby Boosh // 21 weeks




As my midwife said, "Wow, you officially have popped." Feeling large! And that could be due to the fact that I gained quite a few pounds over the last 5 weeks. My bad! At my appointment this week I brought up the possibility of having a home birth and my midwife could not have been more excited. One of the reasons I totally love her! She was super positive about it (she has had one herself) and told me she 100% recommends it. Soooooo we are in the process of discussing it and possibly moving in that direction. I think the only thing holding me back is not wanting to leave the group of midwives that we are currently with.

How far along: 21 weeks
Total weight gain: 13lbs (ahhhhhhhhhhhh)
Maternity clothes: The hair-tie trick seems to be taking me pretty far so I'll stick with it.
Stretch marks: Nothing new as far as I can see.
Sleep: I feel like I can see the light at the end of the "we haven't slept in 17 months" tunnel. Silas is still sleeping in our room but on his own cozy floor bed and it seems to be helping us.
Best moment this week: Taking out the box of stored away baby clothes and drooling over how adorable and small they are.
Movement: He's an active little guy for sure.
Food cravings: Sweets. So weird...
Anything making you queasy or sick: nope, thank god.
Gender: Boy!
Belly Button in or out: Out
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Labor Signs: Braxton Hicks all the time lately. Mostly at the end of the day or if I am taking Silas for a walk.
Mood of the week: Excited! I can't wait to start putting the boys room together and re-doing ours.
Looking forward to: finalizing our decision on whether or not we want to have a home birth!